Shoe Shopping

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Today I ordered shoes online. Three-inch heels. A purple pair. And another, goldenrod yellow. Such extravagance.

I am not normally the sort of person that revels in retail. Usually, I give my spirits a boost by seeking nature, not Nordstrom’s: the sun on my skin, bird calls, an array of wildflowers or beautiful leaves.

But today, as I was surfing the internet in bed, a shoe store ad appeared in my inbox. I felt compelled to indulge. The effort and strain of going to a store does not appeal these days, but I felt great satisfaction clicking through the pages and hitting the “complete order” button.

You have to understand that shoes have not been fun lately. Ever since a tick bite a couple of years ago, I’ve had a stabbing pain in my left foot. It seemed to be a nerve inflamed by bunion pressure. But now I am not so sure, now that I know I have lyme. The foot pain flares when other lyme symptoms do; it is the one symptom that has remained constant as others ebbed and flowed, flared and faded.

The podiatrist gave me custom orthotics and told me to stay out of heels; I gave most of mine away and bought expensive, practical, unlovely sandals made by a running company. But improvement in my foot pain came only when I started antibiotics for lyme.

So today as I lie in my bed working on my computer, my cheerful thought is that the treatment will ultimately fix my poor foot along with the rest of me. So I can get out of flats and back to strappy, three-inch heels.

I place the order for pretty footwear, and I can see myself walking straight and tall instead of scrabbling along limping and hunched in pain. I can imagine walking easily down city sidewalks, feeling strong and independent again in sexy, feminine heels.

And for once, I don’t mind calling myself a material girl.

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2 thoughts on “Shoe Shopping

  1. decimawho November 19, 2012 at 1:40 am Reply

    I so know what you mean. I dream of wearing heels again. I haven’t bought any new clothes since I got sick, as I rarely get dressed anyway. But as now getting better is on the horizon I’ve started to look at online clothes stores. It feels like a real possibility that someday soon I can buy new clothes and *go out* wearing new clothes. It’s such a huge deal, a huge milestone. I hope you enjoy your new shoes. 😀

    • catherinefox08 November 20, 2012 at 1:55 pm Reply

      These seemingly ordinary things that are milestones for us are so incredible when they finally come — the fact that you can see the possibility means you will soon be there! Hold that thought. 🙂

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